I know we all have our perceptions about what chemo entails. Some date back to the early years of chemo and to dramatizations in movies and TV programs. For me, it involved laying back in an easy chair while hooked up to an IV. I can read, talk, watch a video (if I bring a player along), listen to my ipod, or chat. I could do more, like work on my computer, if I was comfortable bending my hand with a needle it my wrist – I am not. At least not yet. I have had a lot of needles in my veins due to all the tests, biopsies, and blood work these past few weeks and that’s not always the worst part. Today, the IV started with anti-nausea medication, followed by one therapy, Paraplatin, than the other, Gemcitabin. This was about 2 1/2 hours altogether. Next week I start with a blood test, come back in an hour, then only one of the chemo medications for about an hour. Yesterday, was much harder on me. It didn’t help there was a big mixup in the lab at Scripps, my paperwork was lost, and I waited nearly 40 minutes to get blood work that came in too late for my procedure. Then the type of procedure was changed dramatically – which caused confusion and more anxiety. And it’s never good hearing once again that the tumor is big. The results of that biopsy is estimated to take 3 – 5 week days. For me, that usually means 5 – 6. It was a long day that started before 7 AM. By the time I got home at 7PM or so, I was aching all over,  fatigued from all the stress, an completely out of steam. Ken was there every step of the way helping me as he has through this and everything. He is and always has been an exceptionally supportive friend and partner. Once home he got me settled in, calmed down, and fed in short-order.  I was finally relaxed and nodded off in relief in no time. So I had little time or energy to add to my blog.Until a week or more ago, I had very limited pain. But, this had increased, mostly a minor level of pain due to the swollen lymph nodes throughout my chest and up to my neck. The pain is tolerable – but the awareness of the spreading cancer it not. That’s been the source of my added anxiety.The hardship of the chemo is the after effect. In the course of killing the cancer cells, it reduces red and white counts. This means fatigue and susceptibility to infection.  This is several days away. At least I am otherwise healthy and my starting counts are quite good. 
Today my sprits are dramatically improved. The pain has lessened and encourages me. The discomfort ahead is a small price for all I have to gain I have to hope for. 

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